04/11/2025
back on my grind, if you define grind as looking for a place i can afford to rent. which is fucking nowhere.
i started playing old school runescape, for the nostalgia, and weirdly i've been enjoying it. that could also be described as being back on my grinds, though i get a sense of accomplishment from that one.
18/11/2025
i am very sad. my period has been going for 13 days nonstop. i want it over.
finally figured out how to use image maps. so that's exciting. i will of course abuse this to post my art on the homepage. i guess this is proof i am a real artist. maybe not a successful one. but real all the same.
i still don't have a new place to live and i get kicked out in january.
19/11/2025
i wonder if anyone else wishes their sunscreen started out colourful before drying down clear? this thought is inspired by the glue sticks, of course. i know that it's probably a weird thing to want, but i'm convincing myself there's a lot of people out there who'd like to be sure about their spf coverage. especially in the asia-pacific region. the governments themselves keep reminding us that our sun is brutal compared to the other side of the world.
i think my creative spark has come back. no, not through journalling, but through convincing myself that being bad at art is way more cool and relatable than having a limited but highly refined output. think of it this way: how does your taste and skill become refined if you don't practice refining things?
exactly.
still suck at css and styling though.
25/11/2025
my computer crashed right as i started writing this entry. that doesn't feel like a huge loss, because i was only about to update you on my runescape ventures.
not that they're particularly interesting either.
my favourite discovery since i've started playing is that i can use a halberd to take advantage of safespots while still gaining atk xp. combined with being able to get slayer tasks from vannaka, my mid-game is progressing much faster.
i've also been watching the amazing digital circus on repeat for, like, a week straight. sure, i could have been drawing or sewing or reading. but i guess those weren't on the list of brain-approved activities.
26/11/2025
i've started packing up all the shit i own into boxes, preparing for a move that i am not yet ready for since i don't actually know where i'm moving to. why? because rental applications are super fun and not at all the worst. i hope the housing bubble pops, i really do.
but hey. at least i have more time to focus on my... art, i guess. or gaming.
speaking of time, i need a new phone, the battery of my current one is dying and i'm extending its life artificially by keeping it on a portable charger whenever i need it.
27/11/2025
my housemate is home sick from work, so we are sharing the loungeroom as we do our separate brainrot activities. for her, it’s gaming, and for me it’s runescape and painting rubbish.
she of course deems it a waste of art materials. as if art could ever be a waste. convincing the canvas to accept the medium is half the fun.
i am trying out acrylic paint pens, rather than paints and brushes, the learning curve is steeper than i expected. i’m not particularly great with brushes either, i have cultivated a habit of using very fine lines to sketch out an image and as well as taking forever, it gives my art a tentative aura.
the idea behind using pens is therefore pretty simple: practice using bold lines and solid colouring.
the problem with this is that paint pens are truly their own medium. unlike paints, they have a texture that is much, much thinner than i am used to. this is good, right? it means they dry faster and can layer better. yeah. it does mean that. it also means if i work too quickly the colours bleed into each other and become messy. if i prime the nib wrong and dump too much onto the surface, the paint likes to run.
and don’t get me started on smudging. i know it’s a skill issue, and my hand shouldn’t need to be that close to the surface that i brush against the wet paint accidentally. but my manual dexterity is limited. small brushes with long handles are easier in this regard — but i’m trying to train myself out of this habit.
damn it.
anyway, all this to say that i should update the main site tonight or tomorrow. assuming i don’t just wash off the paint and dump the canvases in the recycling bin.
29/11/25
dear diary,
ahahahaha anyway. i’ve started updating the site on mobile, which is kind of a pain in the arse because the layout is decidedly not optimised for mobile.
i also don’t know if i’m going to be able to fix it in any reasonable amount of time because the issue at the moment is the sidebar.
there’s an anticonsumption trend on social media at the moment that’s amusing me. not the trend itself, as a broke adult i am convinced that the trend is partly due to most actual people not having the money or time to make high-quality, low-effort videos of shopping hauls and cupboard restocking. no, i’m amused because anticonsumption itself has turned into a consumable subject.
in the spirit of goblincore and anticonsumption, i have begun taking a trash bag on my medically-approved walks and instead of only turning clean trash into art, i have been running any particularly sturdy-looking beach trash through the dishwasher to paint on.