04/08/2025
my paper journals have become entirely too chaotic for me to know how to translate into text on a webpage.
i picked up gratitude journalling at the start of this month. three whole days ago. the habit is fairly easy to maintain at the moment since i just write down a word or thought that makes me happy and stick it into my gratitude album. i bought a bunch of cutesy stationery and cheap lip balms. i guess i want to look like a corpse, not smell like one.
since i've been away from home for the week, the housemate's cat is being extra affectionate. unfortunately his affection can get quite spiky. i'm typing one-handed so as to not interrupt his sleep.
05/08/2025
pain
06/08/2025
have become quite enthusiastic about organising my life, as i do every tax season.
this may be because my period does not seem to want to stop, and the cramps have me in bed all day. i have nothing better to do but sleep and think.
i've reorganised the apps on my phone.
07/08/2025
the bleeding and the cramping won't leave me alone.
in other news, people actually seem to see me as some kind of professional?
18/08/2025
once again, i have allowed myself to build up to needing to backfill a dozen or more logs.
today is the first day of my new strategy of forcing myself to get up and dressed in the morning, instead of lying in bed/on the couch allowing my worries to convince me that i am hopeless and nothing i do matters except when it makes the world a worse place.
my recent stationery splurge has helped. it's been a small help, but not insignificant that instead of rotting away watching letsplays i grab a pencil and just scribble words, or images, whatever comes to mind in the moment.
i've been very, very anxious lately, and i've been putting off a bunch of essential tasks because they either require leaving the house or talking to people. this can only be good for me.
31/08/2025
i am so rubbish at keeping a diary, oh my gosh.