10/01/2024
alright alright alright it's been a few days.
i have been a freelance consultant for a year now. i am also now 30.
my body has been growing lately. it is somewhere that i am not, but we still share a space and a time. i've made it to the new year at 53kg, and the saddest part to me is that my waist curves in again. guess my midlife crisis is here. time to go.
don't stay up too late and start gardening because your back hurts and you want to finish the compost bins before it gets too hot to be outside
my mother's liver is struggling. it can't be anything good. i am afraid for her, but i can't be, because she is afraid already and i cannot impact on that any more than i already am. i hope she is alright.
11/01/2024
stayed up literally 32+ hours, still can't stop eating, the only thing that seems to work is to have somewhere to be.
saw the infamous Belly Line yesterday. hate it.