24/08/2024

it has been six months since i last updated.

that checks out, i guess. i've started back on antidepressants, and i'm about to be in a show, and the state is going to see me. like, perceive me. that's not an appealing thought.

i'm 47kg at the moment and trying to lose again. but once costuming is locked in i won't be allowed to lose or gain weight. that terrifies me, since i don't feel in control on a good day.

i've started gardening again. i think maybe that's all i have left.